Then I realize that God sees my heartache. He knows that I am struggling. He has called Chad and I to live this homeschooling life and He will provide everything I need to be a better teacher, mom, and wife. I need to let go of my own selfishness and remember that I only have my kids with me for a short time. That I am the best mom for Madeline and Eli. I am the best wife for Chad. I thank God for never leaving me to do it on my own because, as today showed, I will fail every time.
Lord, help me be who you called me to be. Give me supernatural patience for my children. Give me supernatural wisdom as their mom and teacher. Let me see them as You see them. Let Your love flow through me and may they see You through me.