It is true. I have gained back almost all the weight I lost last year. (Reminder: I lost 30 pounds last summer in preparation for our big Disney/beach trip.) I think I am still about 5 pounds down from my weight at the beginning of '09. So weight gain of 25 pounds. It is a year and a half later and I am pretty miserable in my own skin. I try to tell myself that I am okay with how I look and feel. It is a lie.
Raw feelings alert: I feel disgusting. Fat and sloth like. I look stupid in most clothes or all clothes. I feel most comfortable holed up in my house wearing over sized t-shirts and too big pajama pants. It covers all the flaws.
So I ask myself, "Self, what the hell are you going to do about it?"
I answer myself, "Stop the excuses and get your butt in gear."
Here we go again. Back to square fat.
Goal: Get back to my wedding weight of 165/size 10.
Stats: Current weight (as of 3 weeks ago at a Drs appt - just tried our scale and it said I weighed 70 pounds. HA! I guess it is time to get a new scale! ) approx (weight is 3 weeks old). 227