Tuesday, May 25, 2010

back to square fat

It is true. I have gained back almost all the weight I lost last year. (Reminder: I lost 30 pounds last summer in preparation for our big Disney/beach trip.) I think I am still about 5 pounds down from my weight at the beginning of '09. So weight gain of 25 pounds.  It is a year and a half later and I am pretty miserable in my own skin. I try to tell myself that I am okay with how I look and feel. It is a lie.

Raw feelings alert: I feel disgusting. Fat and sloth like. I look stupid in most clothes or all clothes. I feel most comfortable holed up in my house wearing over sized t-shirts and too big pajama pants. It covers all the flaws.

So I ask myself, "Self, what the hell are you going to do about it?"
I answer myself, "Stop the excuses and get your butt in gear."

Here we go again. Back to square fat.


Goal: Get back to my wedding weight of 165/size 10.

Stats: Current weight (as of 3 weeks ago at a Drs appt - just tried our scale and it said I weighed 70 pounds. HA! I guess it is time to get a new scale! ) approx (weight is 3 weeks old). 227  
        

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

Creepy coincidence. I started my diet yesterday (feels like AGES ago) and my starting weight is 227.

Let's do it, sistah!!

i'm B. said...

you can, you can, you can, you can!!!

haverlee said...

I know as a "skinny friend" I really can't be all that encouraging since I haven't walked a day in your shoes (or weight, to be more accurate). But I'm so proud of you for setting this goal for yourself and can't wait to see you reach it! I want you to see yourself as all of your friends see you- smart, cute, funny and full of life and laughter (with just enough quirky on the side to make you ALWAYS fun to be around).

I love you and don't ever want your weight to keep you from doing things cause I love hanging out together!

Cin said...

I'm doing it, too, Manda! Go us! *chestbump*